Training Room: Did some call sims with the new hires. Then lunch with my buddies Fredrick and Adrian at Jade Palace. This week has been enjoyable, ultra petics mode. Next week, its going to be back to the real world.

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Now I was supposed to write and rave about my weekends until this computer just did a Houdini trick and warped everthing to the third dimension. Now where was I? My weekends went pretty well, I finally got my copy of Fragile Things, although I haven't started reading it yet and the reason was because I wasn't so much in a reading mode. So you might ask, why not? Well, you might say I am currently not in a place that is conducive for reading. Let me paint you the picture; my new apartment isn't ready yet, I haven't moved in because the original tenants are still there, so here I am with my stuff all over my parents place, clothes...everything, no privacy whatsover, my present address is well my parents couch, get the picture do you? Now given my current schedule, how am I suppposed to start renovating and remodelling the new place? There is still so much to do and yes, I am praying that I can move in before this week is over so I can get my life back, I want to sleep in my own bed, have my own room, kitchen, wake-up and not having to worry if there are visitors around, I can walk around with shrivelled hair...you get the drift. I need my freakin privacy back. Oh well, where was I? I was supposed to be raving, first the Gaiman book, oh, I got to spend some quality time with the family Sunday, we watched "World Trade Center" at Glorietta, it was pretty good but quite melodramatic but of course what would you expect with an Oliver Stone movie?

So another work week begins, some new hires will be coming in to join the BD Dept. New faces, new people, makes things a little more interesting back at the office. But still lots of things to look forward to, there's this new airsoft team that we're planning to start, I have been checking out the new gear and boy, this is going to be one expensive hobby. You get the guns for 16K a piece, not counting the body armor gear you need. But of course this woudn't start until early next year so I still have time think whether this will be worth it or not. I am quite amused with how we guys tend to not outgrow our love for such things, little BB guns now become real ones or in my case become more powerful versions, these are motorized, capable of hundreds of rounds per minute. And then there's the cars, what used to be RC cars now become turbo chargers, engine replacement, horsepower...these are just glorified versions of the Matchbox/Tomica we use to collect and play with when we were kids. Oh well, I guess thats what makes guys more interesting, right girls? (hahaha) See you soon.

Just got a message from PowerBooks Malate this morning, my "Fragile Things" book has just arrived! (big smile)

Thank God for the weekends!

Another work day has ended, the floor is filled with smiles and laughter, who woudn't laugh or smile, the weekends have arrived and after a long week of work, its time to relax, spend time with good friends, watch a movie, finish reading that new book you just bought, waste time at a coffee shop, you get to sleep all day, watch tv all day but best of all, I get to go to church. I know, it's different. I use to spend my Sunday's at home or going to the mall, but now I've realized what I've been missing all along. It's the weekends, it's two days of bliss for people like me.

Breakfast and coffee with the BD team. Hopefully I won't get too sleepy, I need to get the most out of this Saturday (smile) See you next week people!

Just had lunch with the Bid Desk people at HotShots Emerald. Nice, big juicy hamburgers!

The reality of the industry

Several of my colleagues here at work has just passed their resignations, I guess this is the reality of the industry that I'm in. Although the industry has provided jobs for the masses, a lot of our educated workforce has been undermined, true call centers do provide high pay in comparison to the normal compensation that our daytime compatriots recieve, but to what end? Many have been given tasks similar to what answering machines do, automated, mechanical, verbatim. But again, this is the reality of what is happening to our country, we are given few opportunities to show forth what we are truly made of.

Listening to my MP3 collection, nothin much today as with the coming two weeks which is really cool. I will be going through some additional trainings for the Xsale app, so for now its maximum petics mode (haha). Tomorrow, salary day and of course the coming weekends, lots of time to relax before putting the pedal to the metal starting next month. Will be posting pictures of my workplace, station and of course me in action very soon.

I haven't gotten a lot of sleep for the past two days, I wonder if my old bud mr. insomnia, came back to give me a visit or maybe its just from all the caffeine thats been building up inside my system for the last three months, this is all your fault Starbucks!! (going back to sipping my java). I should probably try decaf from now on.

Big Boss Sean just came back from Canada, so it's back to high gear for the rest of us. VL, goody! goody! I'll be filling my vacation leave next month, hopefully it'll get approved, planning to go on a backpacking trip to...I haven't decided yet. Mindanao perhaps? I wonder how much is a plane ticket to Thailand, Phuket, gotta go there once in my lifetime. Maybe, maybe not.

Voicemail, 10 messages, most probably old customers having difficulty downloading the rebate forms or perhaps some returns again. Glad I won't have to deal with those again, which reminds me I need to change my voicemail.

Looking ahead, December is going to be one very busy month for me, lot's of work coming in even during the holidays, hopefully I won't be spending Christmas or New Year in the office, but I guess I don't mind. Back to work.

I was listening to the Edge Radio while preparing for work, heard that one of my favorite professor back at the seminary just released her new book, catchy title; "Carefrontation" by my Old Testament prof Mrs. Martha Anderson or is it Dr. Martha Anderson now. Surely miss my seminary days.

There were several questions that I asked myself, these included; "Where am I going?", Where am I headed?", What are my goals?". In asking these questions I was able to look within and assess my own life and where I was at in this present moment. It is far too easy to get lost in the fray of daily living. Goals can sometimes be lost in the momentary pursuit of the enjoyment and pleasure of daily living. The temporary can sometimes substitute for what should be the main goal. Although the sidestreets do provide a deeper perspective of the journey ahead, we must remember that they should only be one of the means and not an end to itself. Questions and silent contemplations; they provide an inner look at what we have accomplished and what we have yet to do.

Listening to ColdPlay while working.

Downtime

Torrance MIS is doing some software updates on our main application, I guess its that Bill Me Later compatibility issue with MACS (thats our main application), petics mode again. Even our next door neighbors, the credit card people have gone down for their much needed coffee/yosi break.

Current reads

A certain blog was suggested by a colleague at work. I had second thoughts about visiting it but gave it a try anyway, told myself heck, I'm bored.
I'm not really sure what the point was. I was trying to read between the lines and wondering if it was really all satire. Not going to recommend it since a lot of people might find it offensive. Although I did have a good laugh at some of the writes but overall I really don't have any respect for people who looks down on others. I find it neither amusing nor entertaining to say the least. I don't like conos, social climbers, or people pretending to be something that they're not. Period.

I am still waiting for PowerBooks to give me a call regarding my order for Fragile Things.

On the job

Contacting I.T. managers, emailing quotes for companies, more follow-up calls, eating mass quantities of sugar and msg enhanced, artificially flavored food stuff (hopefully I'll gain some superhuman abilities because of this), drinking coffee like it'll run out tomorrow, updating my blog, watching YouTube and NothingToxic, sleeping, trips to 7-11, follow-up emails, online trainings for my Cisco and Microsoft certification, speaking in alien terminology..ex. "I need a wireless router that has a built-in firewall/email protection that can connect to a cellular provider like Sprint, any suggestions guys?"; uhm..uhm..let me transfer you to our Tech Support people. (just kidding)
or I need a new powersupply for my old thingamajig so it'll be compatible with todays standard and also I need some new software to help me in my quest for world domination, oh and don't forget the updates, I might be interested in conquering the Milky Way after this", listening to my MP3 collection, more emails, Xsale, Excel, VARLeasing, CAPSITES, SRCing, MRCing, TPOPing, ALTTABBing in between (just in case the boss drops by for a visit) and of course everybody's favorite YMing and Friendster (via proxy) (shhhhh) Just another day on the job.

There is a war going on inside my mind, in my brain and in my heart. A conflict between who I have become and who I was before. It rages inside of me, a battle for my will and soul. Who's side will win is entirely up to me. For I have been given the power of choice. I have complete control over the outcome of this battle. But there is also a danger in this power that I have been given, this freedom of choice. The danger that lurks inside the dark side of me. The darkside that unleashes its wrath against the fraily of my humanity. It is my curse, it is my fate. I do the things I don't want to do and I can't seem to do the things that I ought to do. I am powerless at times against this mighty adversary, for my enemy, my foe is also within me.


In the darkness, when my eyes could only weep empty tears. In silent anguish and despair, my eyes strained to see, in desperation, I called out and reached with feeble hands to the empty space above me. Fighting off my fears and the doubts inside my mind. Unseen hands of comfort, embracing me for the man that I am. Grace flooded through my emptiness, filling me up and making me whole. In the silence of my room the battle continues to rage. But I already know the outcome of this seige. I am coming back to open arms, I am coming back to arms of grace.

Gravity

The ways of this world are grabbing a hold
Won't let me go, won't let me fly by
It takes it's toll down on my soul
‘Cause I know what I need in my life
Don't let me lose my sight of You
Don't let me lose my sight
I don't want to fall away from You
Gravity is pulling me on down
I don't want to fall away from You
Gravity is pulling me to the ground
This world keeps making me cry
But I'm going to try, going to try to fly, going to fly high
Don't want to give into the sin, want to stay in You ‘til the end
Don't want to lose my sight of You
Don't want to lose my sight
I want to fly
Into the sky
Turn my back on this old world
Leave it all behind
This place is not my home
It's got nothing for me
Only leaves me emptiness
And tears in my eyes

-Shawn McDonald